R.I.P. Spirit

Sorry it has been so long, my cat died (my fault) 6/21/09, my grandma died (not my fault) 6/29/09, birds I didn't know about died out front in my tree by falling to the ground. I just couldn't face anything. I have finally been able to get out poor Spirit's death though, here it is.

So I haven't written in what feels like forever! I just feel so guilty about Spirit being

killed. You see it was all my own fault! I got lazy and cocky and she paid the price. You see

the night before while working grave I had the windows open in the office (can't remember if

others in house were open or not, I think so). I heard a noise but didn't think anything of it

and then I was off work and loading stuff up into van to take to brothers for garage sale. I

went to side of house to do something, I think look and stuff I cut night before and was

trying to decide whether or not to scoop it up when I saw something in the corner of my eye.

It was a cat....and it looked familiar. She let out a meow and I knew it was Spirit! I quickly

gathered her up and as I was walking back around I saw how she got out, through the office

window. She had pushed open the screen! I couldn't believe it....I should have fixed the

screen! So I put her in the house and closed the windows and went and dropped the stuff off

then came home and went to bed. When I started working again that night it was hot in the

office and I was being cheap and lazy! So I put the window fan in the window and since it was

dark out I could have sworn I got around fixing the window because I thought the fan covered

the window, it didn't. I had heard a noise during work again but thought I had made it so she

couldn't get out but I didn't. A little after 6am I think I heard dogs outside going berserk,

looked out side window and saw them have a cat trapped in my front tree...my heart stopped, I

knew it wasn't Spirit because I could see the color of the cat but Spirit would have come

running to see what was going on. I ran to the office window and it was like enough out I saw

the screen was open. I went from room to room looking for her, calling for her, but nothing. I

looked in the tree again but didn't see her. Then my stomach dropped and it hit me to look out

back door, so I opened it....and there she was. Just a little ways from the back porch. Just

laying there, I called to her but nothing. I went down and picked her up, she was still warm,

but she was stiff. She was gone. You could tell the dogs got to her because she was all

disheveled and wet. I took her in and held her and cried. Unfortunately I was still working so

I had to take a call, it was the hardest thing! I called my manager as soon as I was done and

her come on....20 minutes later! I was crying and couldn't talk and it took her 20 minutes!

Its not like she had to drive, just get on from home! I had other calls and I am sure they

were wondering what was wrong, it was so hard to talk. I didn't feel right calling Miki that

early so I started gathering stuff up, I just couldn't have her stuff near me if she wasn't

there. I wrapped her up in a pretty silk shirt of mine and put her in favorite box she liked

to jump in with favorite pillow. I finally couldn't take it anymore and called Miki, Chris

answered and had her call me right back. I was crying the whole time, she asked me what was

wrong and I said Spirit got out again, she said it was okay they would come help me look and I

just started balling. I finally got out that it was too late, I had found her and she was dead

and I lost it again, she said she would come right in and she did. I had everything gathered

at that point and sitting outside. She come up and put it in the car...along with Spirit. Then

we went out to Mom's and hers place, we have a little pet cemetery in back. Chris dug a spot

for her and we went over to mom's and got her just as she was getting out of the shower and

told her through the window. She came out and gave me a hug which got me going again, then she

got dressed and walked over with us and we started covering Spirit up. As they were covering

her I saw a butterfly start flying around the place, then when they were done it sat ontop of

her grave, when I pointed it out we all got teary eyed again. It was hard going over to Miki's for awhile because of Spirit but also Mystery, should would remind me so much of Spirit!